I am a whore But trust me I am still virgin

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I am a whore But trust me I am still virgin.. An emotional story..
What is prostitution?
What is the meaning of prostitution ??
It’s just all about to sell our physical body to the person whom we don’t like.
There is no enjoyment in this particular job – Especially not for the person who owe you her body to you.

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I am a whore But trust me I am still virgin
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What is prostitution?
What is the meaning of prostitution ??
It’s just all about to sell our physical body to the person whom we don’t like.
There is no enjoyment in this particular job – Especially not for the person who owe you her body to you.

No one is there entering in this field by her selves.
Poverty, Restraining, force, are all the reason behind the work of selling body for some piece of time.
Whores are suffered from all type of pain and grief. They also have their soul, thoughts, choices – so don’t consider them as whore
People in our society have negative view of seeing her, and then also some respective people of our society keep in touch with them.

our society used to see us with full of unorganized dishonest, debaucher, doodle people instead of honest, characteristic, straight forward people in our society.
Moreover, ministers, commissioners, collector, businessman, professors, leaders
and famous stockists are helping whore business, corruption, robbery, nude dance bars to grow their wings in our society.
Leaders, actors, and religious people are also like a part of prostitution business.

Whether you are male or female, you will definitely believe that sex is need of all.
With or without feeling they both need to be with each other to satisfy the hunger of their sex which is inside you.
As per saying sex is playing an important role in marriage life, on the basis of sex life many couple come together and many departs.
Girl who is whore by restrains and waiting for customer at night, who else can understand her feeling and pain.
Instead of sleeping calm at own tender bed at deep dark night, why they chosen this dark way in life?
They sell their body with restrains or with their own feeling;

we all do the same by giving our precious time, our unique skills, and our uprightness to our work.
There is no any difference in both situations except that people of society consider them
as bad girl and keep negative thoughts about them and we people getting good response and respect from the same society.

Prostitution is considered as bad habits of our society, but it helps Ruxmani in her bad time.
If any girl step into this prostitution at once its seems too difficult to come out of this danger.
At another side sex workers who are in this since a long found that the only way to live their life.
Any girl who is whore or in relation with them at any point, society will look at them with bad thoughts.
All women carry their own unique story here. If you see the view inside whore’s house, it makes your eyes wet.
Sex workers stay with their children’s in their house.

Apart from all rules of society how difficult it is for them to sell their body with customer in presence of their children.
Just imagine with close eyes. Many restrain full stories meet with the sad story of whore s.

I am a whore But trust me I am still virgin

let me introduce one of the same story with you.

 

One sunset evening meetu was staring at wide-open sky.
Meetu is a character which loves his lover die heartedly.
Daily sunset evening makes her uncomfortable.
Meetu loves rose, she usually talks with rose flower in loneliness.
Holding bright red rose flower in her hand meetu speak eagerly! Vijay !
You are saying that, “Touching soul without touch of body is dishonesty.” But i am saying, “Love is like the highest peak of mountain which is taking bath in bright sun rays and white bright snow on that which is untouched and mesmerising, this takes you to another world by just thoughts. In which touch of soul feels more than touch of body. Listen Vijay, I have considered the sweetness and beautifulness as my love, since you have entered my life i have loved all things in this earth which is loved by you and related to you.
Greenery around all over pleases my mind.

I loved this greenery, these tender red rose! If i explain the reality, when my lover become romantic this whole universe give me the feel of spring. Birds which are flying in far top sky saying me that, “Come and take this sky into your arms, how comfort and satisfaction in this bright sky.” Sometimes go into the lap of earth, and feels to be in lover’s deep romantic eyes!
Taking a breath meetu moves. Suddenly some past memory comes in front her.
Meetu’s eyes became full of tears while thinking about this, past memories run in her eyes one by one. She manager herself to wipe out tears with her dupatta end. Mheetu’s father was not in this world but, meetu’s mother ruxmani educate her in hostel since first.
Ruxmani never let her daughter to be at home in holidays, but she takes her to hills station, So that meetu cannot get know about ruxmani’s work.

Ruxmani tries hard to fulfil all wishes comes from meetu. She never let anything know to her daughter. Sometimes ruxmani thought…. “

Why god is not taking my care, Why everyday is same for me and to suffer, Why all relation of society shows their back to me, Why i had to cry out like mad, O God why all these end at money ….”

When meetu finished her education, and got good job of seventeen thousand salary meetu demands her mother to go home this time. Ruxmani tried hard to deny but she fails to refuse meetu, and meetu step towards her house. It was five kilometre away from station, they both reach there via auto.
“Ruxmani, you will do the same with your daughter” an auto driver asked while taking auto rent. Ruxmani was like broken and can’t understand to reply, “Don’t talk rubbish you mind your own business.” After giving rent to auto driver ruxmani thoughts that meetu has come need to bought some grocery. So she went to the store. “Ruxmani why you have taken your daughter here?

Keep her away from your work, here man like wolf are coming, how many days you will hide her from them, and send her back as soon as possible.” Store keeper said while giving grocery items.

Meanwhile one person speaks from behind, “What you will charge for her ruxmani, one big dealer is there you will get good amount.” Ruxmani was like completely broken and in bad situation. By that time meetu understand well about the situation. She asked her mother, “Mother let’s go from here….”

Ruxmani was walking with down eyes and meetu was calm as zeel. Meetu ignored all which happened. As like nothing has happened. After reaching at home she speaks to her mother ‘Ruxmani’.
“Mother, is that all true which i get know?” Ruxmani burst out and said, ”Yes i am a whore .
Daughter I also has a family. Your father went for the Ganga sanan at haridwar with your grandparents.
We lost all three in road accident. You can there in my womb one month old that is the reason i didn’t went with them. I wish i also would went with them so today’s we didn’t need to suffer from all these. Your uncle throw us out of house, no idea about where to go.
In maternal side i have younger sister who was busy with her family. We were starving, also didn’t get any work to do. Then i got a work of household for a businessman but his intention was very bad. I have lost my reputation with deep sorrow and come to the road again. One lady gives me her home to stay, after some days i came to know this is the house of whore . At there i was doing house hold and prepare food for fourteen people.

 

That lady was happy with my hard work and gave me separate room to live. After you’re born i lost in spending time with you and didn’t think about future. People think me also a whore, because i was at the place where prostitution was in air.

As time passes i thought when you will be young i will leave this place. I have seen many unusual things of life here my daughter! People who are working for women’s rights and empowerment,
they found in whore ’s place openly. I keep myself and you untouched from all this bad things and tolerate many. After all this pain i didn’t let my eyes flow, but my eyes became full of tears when you were born.
My heart was in fear that as you grow young people will see you with bad intention. After considering all this things i have controlled my feeling of motherhood and send you to far place for study.

I am a whore But trust me I am still virgin

Ruxmani want to share everything with her daughter today so she speaks continually in huge pain. My Child! With my all broken dreams in this long path of hard life i feel that I have nothing in the name of achievement of life, But if i look at another point, the biggest achievement is you in my life today; you are the only way to live for me. If you also will consider me wrong then i have nothing to do with my life.
Daughter takes her mother in her arms and said, “Mother you are great! You have given me great career which no one can think in that situation. You have suffered from lot many pain for me. You kept me away from this bad thing of society. You made my life and burnt yourself in this situation. Now not a single day. Now your daughter is capable to take care of her mother. Forgot your all memories, and pain and come with me.
Ruxmani and meetu come at new place and forgot all bad memories behind.
Life was going well, at that time, one boy entered in meet’s life.
Meetu loves him die heartedly.
Ruxmani also made her mind about meetu’s marriage.
Ruxmani ask vijay to come at home to meet and share thought of her mind.
Vijay said, “I will talk to my family about this and call them here.”
Vijay went to his place to talk with his parents about this. Vijay’s parents came. They choose meetu, but after meeting ruxmani Vijay’s father became surprised.
At that time he didn’t speak anything in front all. After they send vijay and meetu outside to talk, vijay’s father asked ruxmani,
“Are you ruxmani?” Ruxmani wan not able to speak anything.
She nod her head slowly and keep her tears inside.
Ruxmani was shivering in fear. She was unable to cry in this odd situation.  She didn’t felt that much helpless in her whole life. Vijay’s father speaks, “ You are a whore . Your daughter can’t get married to my son.” Ruxmani’s tolerance level come to the end and she speaks angrily, “Whore work is far better, you don’t make this word unholy this work from your corrupt mouth. Prostitution word might be an abuse word for you and a society, but this is a prison of time for us, It was a situation for us.
A situation when i lost everything feared and caged.
Her life is like a huge mountain and refrain is like another meaning of life.

Every step is depending upon someone else and to surrender is the first and last condition of life.

Babu ! You might hear that, Death is not the end of life but it is a new beginning.
Only god knows that he didn’t make any boundaries to make our body holy, but after death our body became unholy. If no one follows the rituals with dead body it becomes waist. And after leaving out soul from body no one comes back. That’s why to cheerio is better way to live and till now we are doing the same.
That prostitution only gives me shelter when i was starving from hunger and you didn’t let me found myself capable for anything.
Today you can’t be with your son happily.

See the magic of god
It shows all your deeds here,
to whom you thrown away,
today her daughter became big question mark for you.
They became quite after seeing vijay and meetu and distance.
They behave as like nothing happened.
After a while they went their house.
Mother and daughter have a good cup of tea and get engaged with their work.
But, meetu’s eyes were stuck to the mobile.
She was thinking about why vijay didn’t call back yet.
Suddenly mobile ringed and broke the silence of room,
meetu piked the phone immediately and asked …vijay why you have taken much time to call?
Voice coming from mobile speaker, “ meetu you are not of my comparison,
I got to know about your family business,
you forgot me….i can’t get merry with you.
I also will try to forgive you. Meetu’s trust broken with strong slap of word.
She scrams loudly and fall on the sofa and cute tree.

Mother where are you?
Meetu was mumbling slowly, if you are saying then,
“Yes I am a whore daughter. Yes my mother was whore .
But i am pure like a godess, Trust me i am still virgin….
Ruxmani came fast and became faint after seeing her daughter’s situation.
Her one hand was on chest and another was swinging from sofa with her swinging dark future.
The expression on ruxmani’s faces showing one reality.
Her all prayers and vow goes into the vortex of sadness.
Her daughter’s trust fallen like autumn leaves. She completely gets idea about the value of dried tree.

 

Written By
Sunita Dohare
Editor at Indian Helpline News.
This story has been written by Sunita Dohare and Translated By Nupur P.

 

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